...but of course, I do! Some might attribute this to my religious upbringing (13 years of Catholic schooling, check!), but I think a part of it can be attributed to culture, and of course, some of it is just plain old me.
A (random) list of "shoulds" running around in my head right now:
- shorten curtains in the kids room
- staple back of cupboard back on
- meditate to be calmer for the insem next week
- stop guessing when the insem
might be, (since the doctor hasn't set a date yet), so as to think
about how bad me missing a day at work might be and if my boss notices
that the doctor's note is from really far away...
- start learning Spanish again
- clean out papers and organize kids room
- do taxes, since the German lawmakers decided not to give Broom
and I tax rights even though this was declared unconstitutional (WTF?)
- finish my book
of this, floating around my head even though I used this random, middle
of the week holiday to help a friend move, start a new loaf of bread,
make dinner, and am going to the gym later. I have been progressively
working on getting rid of those feelings of needing to be productive,
and Broom has been a big help in helping me get leveled here. In fact,
it seems as if she has slowed me down a bit in this respect and I have
sped her up, which is working out great, but is indeed a long process.
Hopefully I am right in thinking that everyone feels this way at least
some of the time, although often I wonder "how do they make it all look
Speaking of helping my friend move- should I
feel guilty about having stumbled across her dildo/vibrator? They were
not very organized, and somehow I was packing her top drawers, and there
it was in all of its red glory. I just wrapped the undershirts around
it so that maybe she would think that I didn't see it and packed it away
and labeled the box with her name (so hopefully she will be the one who
opens it and not her kids). A moving company really would have been a
good investment for them, but I am NOT lifting weights at the gym
On that note, I am off to do the curtains!